STRANGE MIX

MY ELEMENTAL STRANGENESS IS STULTIFIED IN THIS SPACE. I FEEL LIKE 16 AGAIN, LIVING WITH THE PARENTS, I LEFT HOME AT 16… ENOUGH SAID. THEY WERE YOUNG THEN, YET COULD NOT ACCEPT THAT I COULD NOT LIVE A NORMAL LIFESTYLE, IT LITERALLY CHOKED ME. AND HERE I AM AGAIN, 63, ANXIOUSLY TOKING OUT OF THE WINDOW, TRYING TO FIND INNER PEACE.

ITS A FUNNY OLD LIFE.

DALE M

NOTHING MIX

I’VE ALWAYS BEEN PLAGUED WITH A DEEP SENSE OF ENNUI… BUT THIS IS DIFFERENT.

IN THE PAST I COULD BREAK IT WITH DISGRACEFUL ACTS OF DEFIANCE. I COULD TAKE MATTERS INTO MY OWN HANDS. TODAY, I CAN BARELY STAND UP. MY BODY IS BROKEN AND ONLY THE CHILL AIR OF BLOODY MINDEDNESS KEEPS ME FROM SLEEPING FOREVER. IN A WORD… FUCK THIS! I HAVE NO BETTER MIND TO WARD OFF THE DARKNESS, NOBODY TO THRILL MY SOUL EXCEPT MYSELF AND I’M ALL OUT OF TICKLING STICKS.

ANYWAY HAVE A NICE DAY.

DALE M

COLD TURKEY MIX

EASTER MONDAY ALWAYS FEELS LIKE COLD TURKEY TO ME… AT LEAST IT WAS WHEN WE WERE STILL ONE… YEAH THAT WAS A GOOD TIME, NAKED ALL WEEKEND, THE MATTRESS IN THE LOUNGE, WATCHING BOX SET OF TWIN PEAKS, GETTING HIGH AND DOING UNMENTIONABLE THINGS TO ONE ANOTHER. THEN COMING DOWN ON MONDAY, TO BE CLEAN TO DRIVE ON THE TUESDAY. THAT WAS LIVING. NOT LIKE THIS. ALL MY DRUGS DO IS KEEP ME ALIVE. JEEZ.

DALE M

PS I HAVE TO REMEMBER TO REJOICE THAT I HAVE LIVED THIS LIFE…