Trying to deal with all the rigmarole, of insurance, Coroners court, bank accounts and so on, has left me feeling punch drunk this afternoon. I have three pages of telephone numbers I need to keep informed of all events, remembering who I have told what and when, my head is literally spinning… It’s been productive but as with all of life’s stress situations, you often feel like you’re banging your head on a brick wall!
By the afternoon I feel totally overwhelmed by grief. The sadness sits like a storm front over my head… I feel guilty about shouting at the dogs… They are not used to this sort of behaviour… Our household is not one full of raised voices, Marie and I never argued. In eight years, we lived in harmony. Now, all is dissonance, there is a jumble of emotions, which I cannot control.
I guess its all a part of the process.
Dale
Yes it’s part of the process.. be compassionate and patient with yourself.
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i’m my own worse critic marieke
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I understand. But try yo see yourself through the eyes of Marie, through the eyes of love.
And being compassionate with yourself also means to take good care of yourself.
Just do things one by one, hour by hour, don’t look forward too much, take your rest.
It’s all a nightmare and a rollercoaster of emotions… let all those waves pass through you, feel and express.
You can do this, Dale
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Hang in there, sounds rough, but hopefully it will be over before long.
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thanks
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*Warm hugs* Take one step at a time, and try not to be hard on yourself… It’s a lot to go through, and it is just normal that your peaceful life is shaken 😦
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thanks catherine
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You’re welcome!
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Take your time, everyone is different. Don’t beat yourself up about it, you’ll have these moments.
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It’s a tough time, but day by day, the tasks will get done. No need to put pressure on yourself.
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